It’s always there. In the eyes. Like the worst possible Mona Lisa smile. I don’t know if other people could see it in mine, or not. I do know I’m not the only one, because I can see it in other people. I’ve seen it in family and friends, and always, always in the mirror. […]
Learning How to Talk About Depression By Jerell Johnson as told to Kitty Rodriguez Raised in a dangerous neighborhood without a lot of positive role models, when I was 18 I took it upon myself to make sure I got out of South Central Los Angeles. Joining the military after graduating from high school seemed […]
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Like a lot of college freshmen, Andrea Delgado is worried about starting school. But while some students become stressed over the prospect of leaving home or taking on a heavy workload, one of Delgado’s main concerns is that she’ll have to navigate her depression alone.
As a high school student, Kevin Hetrick didn’t eat much. He didn’t shower regularly. He barely slept trying to get his homework done.
Growing up, his home life was tumultuous, he says. He sunk himself into academics, taking honors classes and participating in as many extracurricular activities as he could, always seeking perfection.
By Cathy Albrigo as told to Kitty Rodriguez Photos by: Nicolas Heredia My younger brother and I weren’t very close until the last few months of his life, when he was struggling and I tried to be there for him. He was 18 when he committed suicide. I could never imagine how difficult it would […]
Photos by: Nicolas Heredia Her heart rate starts rising. Her hands begin to sweat and shake. She paces back and forth. “I feel like something is going to happen to me but nothing is really there,” she says. “[I tell myself,] ‘There is nothing wrong. It’s okay. This is just your body being weird again.’” […]
and No One’s Talking About It It’s easy to forget that we are mortal until someone in your life disappears. My first encounter with youth depression came during my sophomore year in high school. I was only a witness and yet its impact was powerful enough to rip my life apart. At the the time, […]
What is my purpose here? Why am I wasting space and resources? I’ve lived with these thoughts of worthlessness for most parts of my life. My self-image issues contrast with moments of brilliance and relief. It is a cycle that I had learned to live with. Then while attending UCSB I sought out help. I […]
Anthony Ross, 25, was kicked out of his house and became homeless. He’s struggling with depression, but is driven to make a better life for his son.
When Alex Villaneda was 15, his father passed away. It began a years-long bout with depression that he felt he could not tell anyone about. “I felt I must be the only one that feels this way, and I’m weak as a man because everyone else is alright,” Villaneda said. Last week’s admission by rapper Kendrick Lamar […]
Death. It can happen to anyone, anytime, anywhere. My experience with losing someone is difficult to describe. I lost my grandpa a little over two years ago. He was and always will be a second dad to me. He was there for all of my achievements and games. He encouraged me and helped me realize […]
“I hate living here!” was carved into my bed. I would sit on the floor and stare at it for hours. We had just moved and I had to leave behind all the friends and the memories I had made. It was the end of my sixth grade year and I was just about to […]
It started in middle school, when I was around 11 years old. I started feeling weak, had memory lapses and had no motivation to do anything. I felt sad most of the time. I thought the sadness was a normal part of pre-teen angst. I often starved myself for attention from my parents and friends. […]
Cuando tenía dieciséis años, fui a misa con mi familia todos los días por unos dos meses. Era la misma pauta; rezar, encender una vela y sentarnos en silencio hasta que era la hora de irnos a casa. Lo que incitó esta rutina religiosa fue el fallecimiento de mi madre a causa de un tumor […]
Sam, 22, got shot in the leg during a robbery. He’s struggled with depression his whole life, which worsened after the shooting. He was diagnosed with depression and PTSD.
Not long after I entered middle school, I started struggling with depression, although it would be five years before I was taught the vocabulary to describe what I was feeling. During my early adolescence, I didn’t know that I was mentally ill. As far as I could tell, my state of mind was the same […]
When I was sixteen years old, my family and I went to church every day for about two months. It was the same pattern; pray, light a candle and sit in silence until it was time to go home. What prompted this religious routine was my mother passing away due to a cancerous tumor that […]